This time I was focusing on the feeling itself.
Creation, Tiredness, Daily positiveness and one more, but about this later. I completed each work in the moment of the deep emotional state. For me, such a work called a game between lines and colour which bring across a story and build imagination around the subject.
The name is an essential part of the work. No name it is also information which will be considered. Minimum what will be written next to this work is:
No title
60 x 80 cm
Shanghai
Marina WitteMann
So minimum information viewer get from the footnote – “she is for sure not a Chinese, but work there…” the prior experience will bring the viewer to some point of association.
A gesture of the line can be perceived as impulsive, broken, sometimes sharp, sometimes smooth. Different materials in usage - oil pastel, oil, felt-tip pen, create a complex texture intended to emphasize the complexity of the creative process, and lines represent its emotional component.
Next work I accomplished when being completely devastated. My heart was beating slowly and its vibrations were heard all over my body. There was only one desire - to go to bed, but I thought that this is a rare, strong state which I might not get anymore, so instead of going to sleep, I began to work.
Materials were at hand. Canvas 60 x 80 cm., watercolour, dry pastel. Water seemed to me is necessary for this process, since the natural flow downward would reflect my state in the best way - to drain to a horizontal position. Here I didn’t want to use any bright colours or sharp lines. But here I realised that “my style of work”, lines, waves, combinations, patterns have become recognisable. If they are representative it is a different question.
Next work was in the positive and optimistic mood – which for me is, honestly saying, not the most interesting one, as in a happiness your brain can’t find a development – only in suffer and searching for the best, you are able to change something on the way to the emotional state of the same happiness. J Anyway… The joyful and playful mood was motivational at that point. As I completed two previous works on the white surface, now, I took the opposite - black.
From my last assignment work, I tried sewing method. The line which is created from two punctures on paper is always straight what painter can’t reach by hand. But, because at this time, I had a plywood 60 x80 cm. needling would not fit. Letting thread freely form the lines I conducted the composition. Background forms are soft, smooth and joyful. All materials are changing the impression when you see it with a black light.
Unfortunately, during this research, I had a small operation and emotionally it was difficult to accept certain circumstances. Right after this process, in the hospital, I paint what I felt like in my iPhone’s sketchbook but as my impression was too strong I worked straight after I went back to the studio.
One day before this I prepared a pure canvas for the next work. The idea was to experiment with an “alive” material and bigger size 210 x 210 centimetres. I didn't want to stretch canvas on the wood frame I wanted to start out of the idea and not out of the borders of the canvas.
Red was the main colour out of objective reasons. The expression was more about the invasion of my healthy body. Big scale of the canvas made me work with the whole body and one line became one gesture. What I didn’t like, that preliminarily prepared white acrylic colour started mixing with other colours and turned into a dirty hue. Luckily, I noticed this early enough so I worked a bit more on the sides and stopped my work in the middle of the night.
One thought did not leave me, I wanted to integrate the first painting from the hospital as the original one... and the solution came in the form of a projector. Last time in the plane to Moscow I saw advertising in a magazine with a cheap projector and picture of “the real life in front of the football fans”. And next evening I received TaoBao box with the 55 Euro (63 USD, 48 GBP, 4150 RUB just in case)) projector.
Experiments started with my iPad:
I also reproduced my previous work on a clean white canvas. At this moment a lot of conclusions came to my mind:
- First, what is original then, if any of my pictures can be reproduced with high quality and even without original work?
- Second, anything can be represented by now with digital technology, but the texture, volume and alive material not there.
- Third, my drawing on the iPad came to life on the real canvas, but this canvas basically is clean of any marks. Controversial feeling about the existence of the white canvas as a real object which I can touch and virtual painting which is not there without a lamp in the projector, electricity and all other devices…
- Fourth, this is a process of the drawing. Normally, we always see the final, ready art piece unless it is a performance. But here is all 17 seconds of video are present and can be non stop repeated. What is the difference than in between video and my projection on the canvas? Here is no real digital surface it is an arrangement of light of the lines making process in a digital form which represented on the original painting material – canvas.
Coming back to my main work – I was searching the way of expression. But truly saying, on the next day, I felt much better so rhetorically I explained it – with time everything will go away. My optimistic mood I interpreted as a repairment process, as a healing… and what is a girl doing to repair, right – sew! Connect two or more parts together.
A question of the “women art” made me sick due to all “pinkish”, “sweetish”, “flowery” things. All my life I truly thought that the man is more advanced than the woman. They are more precise, self-confident, concrete, focused and very simple. The last point, I believe the most crucial one! Exactly this, what makes them express and create greater things. Woman naturally absolutely unstable, overemotional organism and think too many things at ones! I was living with this conviction till the moment I had a needle in my hand – man wouldn't do that ever. I’m doing women art! It killed me!!!!
I thought about this and went further…
Additional colours on the canvas made the surface spinning and, at the same time, created a perspective to the something positive. Technically, as I worked with acryl, it dried out on the plastic surface with an all previous paint which I had on the pallet. Then, carefully, by the putty knife, I took it off the surface and sew it on the canvas.
Sew the colour on the canvas. To sew paint... Lines of drawing fixing the paint...
I tried to paint on the photo of the canvas but it didn’t help. It was a feeling of incompleteness. Then I paint big stains of dominant colour and projected it on the canvas... again – nothing breathtaking.
Next step, I transformed the lineal drawing on my canvas, changed the starting colour on a computer to the black, and then, with an eraser on my laptop, I started to open the white digital sheet with a projection on the canvas...
In a conclusion, this part of research brought me to the new way of combination digital line and real alive material with a texture and my energy on it. Digital drawing, in the end, is connecting stain elements on the canvas in bigger forms and creates a complete composition of the work. A viewer is fixed to the end of the story as the moving element is intriguing.
This is a line improvisation what computer would not be able to do, it makes all recording alive as it is a continuation of the painting on the canvas.
Music came later...
(The Insomniac Parade by The Whole Other (2018) YouTube collection [Online] Available from: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCxfzyJ-HvEZbGmubAmfcsfQ/featured?disable_polymer=1)
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